How to Spread Your Wings

Spread Your Wings: Western Swallowtail ButterflyIf someone had asked me how to spread your wings a couple years ago, I would have had no idea how to answer them. One of the most painful things to do as a writer, or maybe it’s just me as an introvert, is to move out of an established comfort zone. This year has been a series of those kinds of steps for me. I joined RWA, I’ve entered contests, placed and won bids on critiques or just asked different people for their thoughts on my writing. I have several other steps planned for the rest of the year, but I know it’s not going to get any easier.

So how have I managed to force myself out of my cocoon and out of my comfort zone?

1) Setting small yet attainable goals. Breaking bigger goals down into smaller ones help make it not feel so overwhelming. Telling yourself you only have to do one small thing deflates the importance and takes some of the scary out of the task.

2) Sneaking up on those goals. Baby steps help here too. In preparation for sending off a submission packet to an agent, I’ve done a lot of similar yet different things this year. In bidding on critique donations, I ended up sending 3 chapters to a published author. Yeah, that was harder than sending it to someone I know online. However, I know that when I go to hit send on a submission, it’ll be easier for the practice.

3) Realizing no one else can do these things for me. If I want to be a published author, these goals are on that path and I’ll have to tackle them at some point. Each step takes me closer to that goal and each step so far has gotten easier. Maybe it’s just looking back that makes the previous steps look so much smaller, like when you stand at the top of the stairs cut into a mountainside and look down at where you started climbing.

What kinds of things do you find yourself doing to push yourself and spread your wings?

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011!

Happy New Year, 2011!First off I’d like to wish you and yours a Happy and Prosperous New Year!

2010 Recap

I accomplished 28 of my 48 stated goals for 2010. Now while 58% doesn’t sound that great, when I consider everything that went on in 2010 including losing three months to essentially homeschooling the boy and dealing with his sinus infection, it doesn’t look quite so bad.

So, what were the big things I accomplished?

I completed a 331 page rough draft of Beneath His Touch. We did something for each school vacation and birthday in the house, besides just sit holed up in our cave. My Christmas Shopping Done by 12/12 and my wrapping was done by 12/19.

But I think the biggest accomplishment this year was that I publicly owned up to the fact that I was writing fiction and in which genre to not just family and friends, but some complete strangers on Facebook and no one laughed. At least not where I could hear it.

Oh, and we’re in the middle of buying a house. We started looking like 2 weeks before Thanksgiving and we’ll close the end of January and move the first couple weeks of February. That’s one item checked off the 5 Year Plan!

2011 Goals

I managed to only make 42 goals for 2011, but I think they’re SMARTer this year. Many of them are building new habits on a weekly or monthly basis, but there are a few big projects in there as well. Not least of all, making sure we don’t have any unpacked boxes from the move at the end of the year. Just knowing that we have ones that haven’t been unpacked here after seven was a bit discouraging. Yup, procrastination at its finest!

So, what were the big things I hope to accomplish in 2011?

  1. Stay grain-free/low-carb. DH and I are following a Paleo style diet and I feel so much better. The weightloss is icing on the cake, to mix metaphors horribly. By the end of the year, I hope to have a collection of at least 52 TNT recipes.
  2. Writing wise: I want to have Beneath His Touch ready to submit to agents by the end of July. I’d also like to have the complete next draft of Revealed done that fills in all the holes from the previous draft. I’ll also be taking the plunge and joining RWA along with the local chapter and an online one, The Beau Monde, which specializes in the Regency.
  3. Blog wise: I’ve made a commitment to blog at least once a week. Topics may vary widely, but I do have a list to work from. I think I was far too ambitious last year and having my attention pulled from my writing to the boy’s school work didn’t help. Also, I’m going to try out the idea of doing Sweet Temptation as free, serial read for Excerpt Mondays.
  4. Continue celebrating birthdays in the family (extended as well as just in the house) and taking advantage of those school vacations and wrap up my christmas shopping and wrapping around the same time. It was so much less stressful this year! I just need to start a little earlier next year.

Like I said, those are the big ones, and they include several of the smaller ones on my list. So, I’m hoping that 2011 will be just as busy as 2010 was, but more focused and purposeful.

What big plans do you have for 2011?

Drafting or Drifting?

Picture of trees and clouds, nothing exciting.In my last post, I talked about how my writing style seems to be rather Cyclic in Nature, either full-on or drifting between bouts of inspiration. The good news is that I’ve finished a very rough draft of Beneath His Touch and I’m looking ahead to 2011 and starting to build my goals list.

While it’s tempting to be all cloud-like during this hectic time of the year, I know I need to take advantage of this “down” time and stuff my head full once more in order to build up for the next round. Looking at what I want to accomplish next year, I have one manuscript to edit and revise, one to do some reworking on, and one that I want to do as a free serial read here as part of Excerpt Mondays.

Just putting that much down in black and white makes it intimidating and I feel like the clock is already ticking. Maybe that’s just the one for Christmas shopping! Eep. I’m sure you’ve have plenty yet to do in 2010 as well, so I’ll just wish you and yours a fantastic holiday season and that 2011 is all you want it to be in case we miss each other in all the holiday cheer.

(And no, this isn’t my last planned post for the year! I’m trying to ease back into regular postings so I don’t scare myself away again.)

Goals, Accountability & Blog Plans

The Writer IconIt’s the time of year to talk about New Year’s Resolutions and Goals.

But what if you don’t want your hopes, dreams and plans to go the way of every other year’s abandoned or failed New Year’s resolutions?

Last year, I joined an accountability group and learned goals must be WRITTEN down. Committing goals to a fixed form helps keep your eye on the prize instead of watching good intentions disappear with those New Year’s champagne bubbles.

Goals

Once you have them written down, take a close look at them. Are your goals, S.M.A.R.T.? That is to say, are your goals

Specific

Is your goal clear and unambigous? What exactly do you want to accomplish?

Measurable

How will you know when you’re done?

Achievable

Can you realistically attain this goal? What changes will you need to make in order to reach this goal?

Relevant

Why is it important to accomplish this goal?

Time-Bound

When will you have it completed by? How long will it take you? Is this realistic?

Bob Mayer in his Who Dares Wins book and Warrior Writer workshops, teaches the idea that not only do you need to know WHAT you want to accomplish, but WHY you want to achieve those goals and HOW you plan to overcome any obstacles along the way. These ideas, learned in his Green Beret days, dovetail nicely with the S.M.A.R.T. goals mentioned above.

Accountability

Now that you have your set of goals, you need to make sure you keep working toward hem. Personal accountability is only so good. It’s been proven we do better if we have to answer to someone else. If you don’t belong to a writers’ group (online or off) or a writing forum of some sort already, these can be great sources of support and people who can hold you accountable.

Other ways to hold yourself accountable include:

  • Posting your goals publicly on your blog.
  • Write your goals on a post-it and tape it to your monitor or something else you look at every day.
  • Sending email to your future self via a service like futureme.org
  • Posting your small daily goals on Twitter some #hashtags already exist for writing: #amwriting, #writegoal, #goalwar
  • Using task management software like Things for the Mac, or Lifetick online

Also important is the periodic reviewing, adjusting and reality checking of your goals. You need to make them and your daily routine work for you and change what isn’t working.

Blog Plans

One of the goals I promised myself I’d work toward this year is having a more active blog. I brainstormed a long list of topics and then organized them into several categories. I want to keep exploring the creative process of writing, but I also want to explore more of the Regency Era of early 19th Century England as well as improve my Regency Resources Page.

I’ll be covering a wide array of topics I hope will prove interesting and valuable resources in the future. The writing categories I’ve chosen (The Writer, Writing as Art, Writing as Craft, and Writing Life) will rotate on a weekly basis and I want to do at least one Regency Resource post each week. So I hope you’ll follow along this year and chime in too!

 

So, are you gonna reach your goals in 2010 and beyond? I came closer than ever before in 2009 by using these concepts, and I know 2010 is going to be even better!

67 Days

calendarI decided I’m not going to do NaNoWriMo again this year. I’m taking a slower approach and hoping to complete the first full draft of my Regency, Beneath His Touch, by December 31st. This gives me 67 days to write another 56k words to end up with 90k total. When I’ve been able to sit down and focus, I’ve been able to write a bit over 1k words a day. This is lower than the 1667 words a day for NaNoWriMo. To finish this book in November, it would take around 1900 words a day, something I’m not willing to commit to right now.

Unfortunately, I’m not a crazy college student with all the free time in the world on my hands. I have two middle schoolers who are in need of a bit more direction and support to make it through this next quarter while trying to keep up with martial arts and scouts as well. Not to mention all the normal holiday fanfare in the next two months that will fall on my shoulders.

But that’s what the group, Accountability Corner, I belong to is all about: balancing life with writing. Lately, we’ve been trying to think of our writing as starting a small business and what all needs to be done to make it successful. I still feel like I’m very much in the R&D and early product development stages. I know what I want, but I’m not quite sure the prototypes are living up to my expectations. It was surprising to see how many activities we could tie to the ones listed for starting a small business and even more so, how many of them we were already pursuing. Some of us more than others, but we were all headed in the right direction.

Speaking of R&D, I’ve been doing a lot of research lately. Not necessarily Regency specific research, although a lot of people have been visiting my Regency Resource pages, but I’ve been reading voraciously this year. I could only recall about 79 books that I’d read last year, but this year I decided to keep track with GoodReads and set up a shelf for books I read in 2009. I’m surprised that I’ve read 105 books so far and I have another two in progress as well. I tend to keep one book in the car to read while I pick up the kids and I forget to bring it in, so I pick up and start another one in the house. I’m curious to see how far I’ll get on that count in the next 67 days as well.

So, what are YOU going to do in the next 67 days?

Summer’s Over

patioYup, Summer’s officially over and the kids are back in school and that means I have more time to myself again. How can they both be in middle school already?

Despite appearances to the contrary on the blog, I have actually been doing some writing related work. You know you’ve neglected the blog for too long when your mother points out the only new posts have been these Excerpt Monday things. So… since the next Excerpt Monday is coming up in about three weeks on September 14th, I figured I better get some posts written between now and then.

I’m part of an accountability group. It really helps to know that others are out there working toward similar goals and will call you on it when you fail to mark yours off the list. Currently, we’re reassessing out Long-Term Goals while the new members create theirs and I still need to finalize mine before this weekend’s over. I can do daily and even weekly goals, but have never had much luck trying to do things much longer than that.

I think the most important questions Bria posed to us last week were these: “What did I do this week to work toward my LTGs?” and “What can I do this week to work toward my LTGs?” I just need to sit down with those in my head as I create my weekly goals list and hopefully I can knock off some of these longer projects.

One of my mid-range goals is to attend a writing workshop in late September. I’ll need a writing sample if I want to fully participate that includes bringing: a one-page synopsis, a query letter, and the polished first 10 pages of a project.

Yup. I have nothing of the sort as a complete package right now. Guess what I’m going to be doing the next month. Scrambling. Sorta. I’ve started working on the synopses for the four projects I’ve been flipping between.

I’ve got one right about where I want it and then three that are just way too long and packed with unnecessary details at this point.
It still surprises to me with as much as I worked on the plot outline for BHT over the last two years, how much of a mess it remains. While the progression of events seems logical, there’s not much coherency between them. Why do certain things matter? Why do I need to show this and not that? So much of it is still this huge jigsaw puzzle where I’m not sure that all the pieces are even from the same puzzle, but they all seem to be painted this hazy grey.

The one for Revealed is in better shape, but it’s got these big huge gaping holes where the picture of Barrington (the hero) should be. He’s merely reflected off the heroine right now, not standing clearly on his own yet.

I know I have no idea where to begin FQD yet, but that story actually seems to be the best delineated of the four. Yes, it helps I started with an established fairy tale, but even with the gaps that synopsis has, they don’t feel as disconnected and jarring as the others.

The sweet story I’d started last year and never finished also seems to be in decent shape. It’s just going to be a matter of focus and effort at this point, but I still want to finish this one. I love the characters and I love the rom-com feel of it with its concealed identities and the role reversals in it. It’s just fun.

I’m hoping to finish those up this weekend and next week work on query letters. Then I’ll work on polishing those first pages. Before too much longer, I suspect I’ll know which one to take with me and that I’ll be working to finish by the end of the year. Yes, you heard me right, finish, by December 31st. So hold me to that, ‘kay? 🙂

Back On Track…

Mac OS X Leopard’s Spash Screen

Well, I gave in and wiped the harddrive on the laptop after trying just about every method known to man to try to get any files off it. The file system was completely hosed.

Reinstalling the OS and upgrading to Leopard and then reinstalling Office and Adobe’s Creative Suite took way too long. I’m still missing some stuff, but luckily I had registration codes written down for everything except one and I think I lost the email for that one in the wipe.

Fortunately, I only lost about 5 days worth of edits and journal entries that weren’t backed up on my desktop machine. I’m giving what used to be called .mac or iDisk and is now known as MobileMe a trial. For $99 a year, they’ll back up all the preferences and data from my Apple-centric software. Sadly, I don’t like Mail, Safari, iCal, or Address Book and prefer Entourage. So, if I want that stuff backed up, I have to do a bunch of picky hand-setting of what I want archived. Add to this, if I don’t want to give up my two free month trial, I can pay my money now and upload more than 100mb at a time.

Do you know how small 100mb is?! Sheesh.

So on the whole, I’m not TOO depressed about having to wipe it, but I am feeling a distinct sting where all my contacts, emails and stuff that wasn’t backed up have been ripped from me. Yes, for a digital packrat, this sucks. Oh well, life goes on and more will be accumulated over time.

So the plans this week are to jump back in at the deep end and keep going. At least the writing stuff lost wasn’t new pages, just some edits. It could have been so much worse than having to resummarize the scenes in Revealed, but I’m looking at them closely in terms of subplots and what I can do to expand on Barrington’s story line. I also printed out the whole beast so I can work on the edits from that and know which pages have been revised for sure. Yup, list of pages revised went poof too.

So that’s how my week wrapped up. Dr. Horrible was definitely a bright spot. Joss Whedon is pure EVIL!

Goals

I’ve never been a very goal oriented person. I’m more the type to sit back and react to what happens around me. This isn’t working as far as writing goes.

One of the joys of DH living in Peru and growing up with football (that’s soccer to us Americans) as a way of life means I get treated to World Cup Soccer in Spanish because the coverage is better. The announcers are also a whole lot more into it, it’s crazy how excited they get, especially when you only catch about every 5th word or so. At least it’s only every 4 years.

One of the Divas Author of the Month forum workshops was by Jaci Burton on career building and goal setting. I read everything, but didn’t really do anything with it. It seems silly to me to be thinking about things like agents and editors and publishing houses at this point. Maybe this is fear of rejection talking, but seriously, my main goal is still to have something finished and in shape to send to one of those type people. Baby steps.

One of the sections of the RD board there’s a section for posting goals and being held accountable to them. I’ve never posted there before, but I’m always reading and occasionally cheering people on. One of the people I regular challenge with, Elune, posted a very simple and elegant set of goals:

Daily (weekday) Goals

  1. Write at least 2K words
  2. Read through & revise previous days progress

Weekly (weekend) Goals

  1. Learn 1 new thing to improve my writing
  2. Read through & revise the weeks progress

Monthly Goals

  1. Read through & revise the months progress
  2. Refresh 4 lessons learned that month

Short and to the point. They’re easily measurable. They’re not very subjective! They seem reasonable!

I must steal them. Several people are doing a Fast Draft for two weeks where they attempt to write 20 pages a day which comes out around 5k a day. Now, looking back at November, there’s no way I can do that, not with other obligations still hanging over my head. The 1667/day that NaNoWriMo meant was doable. Last fall I’d been doing the 2k/day when I sat down and focused and knew what I was going to be writing each time.

How fortunate that RD is also hosting a WriMo for May. I think I can do that and I really need incentive to help me push through another first draft. Andi and I are talking about becoming accountability buddies, but the combination should ensure success. So, I’m going to steal Elune’s goals and tweak them for me. I’m sure they’ll evolve over time and come to include more things, but for now, this is what I want to do for May. I know I’m going to probably have a week devoted to other obligations, but I think it’s do able!

Kaige’s Daily (weekday) Goals

  1. Write daily journal entry (1k words)
  2. Write at least 2K words on WIP
  3. Sanity check next 2 scenes, adjust where necessary

Kaige’s Weekly (weekend) Goals

  1. Make sure 14k goal for week is met
  2. Sanity check remaining outline, adjust where necessary
  3. Post a minimum of 3 times per week (Th13 is one).

Kaige’s Goal for May

  1. Have rough draft completed by May 30th before we go camping.
  2. Don’t sweat the small stuff!

Wish me luck, I’m gonna need it. I can already feel the welts from Andi’s whip. *wince*

What do you do to push yourself and meet your personal goals?

Fitting Pieces Back Together

This is still really rough, but I spent a large chunk of today working on turning my worksheet of scenes with their info and list of beats to be hit into a genuine stab at a blurb and synopsis. I realize that it’s still needs a lot of work and many of the details have either not floated to the surface of my brain or not made it to the page. I’m not particularly tied to the names for the Hero and Heroine, but there is a reason for them.

This step pretty much correlates to writing out all the steps for the big quest in the area or zone if I were designing a game area.

Questions, comments, and critiques all welcome.

The Blurb

When an accommodating miller’s son stops to help a gypsy woman shunned by the rest of his village, he learns the daughter of one noble family has been kidnapped by another and must decide if he can give up the potential riches to be gained by working in the second household to steal away with his newfound love.

The Synopsis

Alex Miller can’t seem to help himself. He always lends a helping hand to those in need around him but his father refuses to see how his son’s altruism will be an advantage when Alex won’t ask for assistance he so readily gives to others.

Returning from the village to replace a broken gear for the mill, Alex comes across a wagon stuck in the ditch. An old Gypsy woman complains no one has bothered to stop all day and rewards Alex’s kindness with news of Anthea’s kidnapping and gives him a magic bell she claims will aid his rescue of this beautiful young debutante. He remains unconvinced of the bell’s usefulness, but unwilling to insult her, he tucks it away before heading home.

His father is furious with how long it has taken Alex to travel to the village, pick up the part and return. They argue over why it matters if Alex takes the time to help others when working the mill is a sure-fire way to get no where fast. His father proclaims he will never amount to much and Alex storms upstairs to pack his bag. He’s got a noblewoman to rescue.

Alex is anxious to complete his quest, but he is unable to ignore the pleas of three young men of consequence when his help and ingenuity is required to get them out of their predicaments. When the four stop for the night at an unsavory tavern, they overhear rumors of a woman being held prisoner on a nearby estate by a wealthy and powerful family. In the morning, Alex slips away, but finds his friends have followed him for lack of better entertainment.

His hopes for proving his worthiness, and the worth of helping others, to his father die when the butler slams the door in their face. They return to the tavern to plot a way into the household in order to rescue Anthea.

One of his friends uses his influence to convince the Matriarch of the family, a nasty, old dragon of a woman to hire Alex as a groom. She is flattered by their false praises for her lost beauty and agrees, placing Alex personally in charge of her eldest son’s prized mare.

The horse proves fractious and escapes from Alex. In desperation, he pulls out the small bell given to him by the gypsy and sounds it. The animal is found by one of his friends and Alex’s position is safe. He denies having any problems and the Matriarch rewards him with new copper-colored finery and invites him to join the family for dinner.

At the ball, he meets the kidnapped noblewoman and learns of her unhappiness. The Matriarch is holding her captive until her eldest son returns from wherever the hell he is hiding. He promises to find a way to rescue her.

The next time he is sent to exercise the mare, she once again escapes. He searches where she was found before to no avail. He gives in and rings the bell. Another of his friends locates and returns the horse, saving Alex’s hide. His reward is silver-colored finery and an invitation to an intimate dinner party hosted by the Matriarch, who then treats him more as a guest than a servant.

One evening, he finds Anthea alone in the garden and she confesses her wish to marry for love not duty, nor political or financial gain. He relates the plans for escape that he and his friends have devised, but she advises him to ask the Matriarch for a useful reward such the mare’s foal instead of accepting cast-off clothing and ignoring how the family laughs at him behind his back.

The next day, he’s sent to exercise the prize mare and he relaxes his guard when she behaves for him. She slips away while he daydreams. He searches the locations in which she was previously found but resorts to ringing the bell in desperation. He returns to the stables only to meet his third friend returning from the river where the mare had been grazing. The Matriarch is impressed he has done so well given the horse’s mischievous streak. Alex boldly requests ownership of the mare’s foal before she can offer him more clothing. She laughs and pleased by his confidence, she gifts him with a splendid outfit of golden finery and invites him to a ball that night as well.

Instead, Alex and the noblewoman sneak off to the stables where she locates the foal – a finely grown gelding. They hide when a groom doing his final round surprises the couple and then flee on horseback to meet up with his trio of allies at the tavern.

Their escape is soon noticed and the family’s younger sons, sent to retrieve the bride the Matriarch had picked out for her eldest son, pursue them across the fields. The brothers’ relentless pursuit means Alex and his friends must rely on the noblewoman’s knowledge of the area and trust her judgment.

After a harrowing night, Anthea guides everyone safely to her mother’s house where Alex’s worth is questioned and she defends his actions and decisions. He admits he requires assistance to defeat the Matriarch’s younger sons and guarantee Anthea’s safety. A few favors are called in and the enemy is routed for good.

Her mother wants to ensure her daughter’s happiness and can’t imagine she’ll be happy as a miller’s son living so far away. Alex assures her that he won’t be continuing in the family business and intends to build a home of his own. Anthea declares she will never love another but they can visit every year during the winter holidays. His father is summoned for the wedding.

Logic Puzzles

I hate the ones like on the SAT where they’re not much more than busy work.

You know. Lots of irrelevant information thrown at you about what the weather was like when Mrs. So-n-So’s 3rd grade class went to this specific zoo and saw a group of monkeys, so many males and so many females all eating fruit with even more irrelevant details thrown in. Then you’re supposed to figure out which monkey’s name, their favorite fruit and where they liked to eat it by the set of clues about their likes and dislikes.

They always involve setting up a table and filling in the blanks given the information in the clues. I hate when the kids bring these types of problems home because they refuse to see the pattern and get stuck in the irrelevant details. It’s all about focus, pattern matching and sifting through the information given to find the useful nuggets.

I feel like I’ve been working on a giant one of these this week. I’ve got a list of 22 scenes (so far) with various columns regarding what should be happening in each one. I’m not sure I have it slimmed down to the relevant info yet, but it’s coming along and seems to flow from one to the next.

The trickiest part has been stepping back and looking at each scene as a collection of beats like in a screenplay and making sure the final action leads to the next scene while at the same time making sure the scenes also progress through a story arc and also allow the hero and heroine to make their romance work. I suspect this one might fall under “with romantic elements” but I think that can be shifted a bit more to the 75% romance instead of 67% that it’s currently at.

Did I mention that I have trouble thinking short and simple?

I have all but the last 5 scenes sketched out. I think I still need to go back and look through them for how the characters are feeling at these points in the story, but once the timeline and what needs to happen is set out, I can get down to the business of writing this thing down.

I’ve tried to stick with a plotline that would be similar to the type I’d done for the game, and it’s interesting to see the parallels as well as where the way I think about it has to diverge from tried and true patterns. I actually have to go through the process of “playing through the quest” and figuring out what makes it interesting to watch from the outside instead of just experience on a personal level. Screw-ups are only interesting if they teach the hero something useful about himself that will eventually affect his overall success.

I still have doubts about the saleability of this idea, but I’m not going to worry about that for now. First, I have to get the first draft down.

I did find an interesting article over on Michelle Willingham’s site about how someone can go from hate to love in 11 steps. Definitely something I’ve seen repeatedly in my reading, but never really thought about as outline points.

So, what do you compare your writing process to? What have you experienced “Aha!” moments over?